Have been home for two days...no work until tomorrow! I just love days off! I never get accomplished what I want to though...never! Never enough hours in the day, even though I usually start my day at 4:30. This just doesn't seem right does it????? Went to the gym this morning and did the TM again. Not too bad, ran on it for 50 minute. I wanted to run outside, but we were having a little freezing rain.

These dreary days are getting to me. The meteorologist on the local news said that we have had 1 sunny day in the past 28!! It is no wonder that people are depressed for heaven's sake!! Maybe I need one of those light boxes to perk me up. My house looks dirty, everything looks dirty this time of year, I do not like it. Gee only 2 or 3 months more of this! I wish that I were a more positive person. I tend to expect the worst and am happy when it doesn't happen that way. I should be just the opposite, but it is a hard habit to overcome and I try, I really do. Wonder why I am like this? I don't remember my parents being pessimistic, maybe my mom a little. I guess I am pessimistic about the little things though...like it always rains on my day off (it does) or , when my son played baseball, I would sit in those bleachers and just wish and think positive that he would get a hit when he was up to bat, but he very rarely did, stupid things like that, that do not matter a bit anymore...weird thoughts tonight.



Talked to a dear friend today who always cheers me up. Aren't friends wonderful??? Always knows what to say to make my day. Husbands aren't always good for this, they mean well, but nothing like a friend. Is that terrible to say? I don't think so. My husband is great, just not great for all things.

I am alone tonight for a few hours. I do love being alone, but tonight I wish that I had company, something to do, somewhere to go, I am starting to get a little depressed and that "feel sorry for myself" feeling is coming on. I better go and do something productive...like watch a comedy movie!

Gin

Ranting and Running

Was watching The View on my lunch break and I feel like Whoopie does....to those in Congress..."we want what you have" Just give us the Health Insurance that you all have, that's all we want. Are we hoping for too much? I don't think so...I don't even care if they raise my taxes if I get something for it. People seem so set against getting their taxes raised, but it has to be done if you want more services etc....WE want free education, free health care, but we are going to have to pay for it somehow, it just has to be ironed out I hope. Seems over the past decade we pay more taxes, but the streets in my town have more potholes than ever, they are cutting police and fire...so I just don't see my tax dollars at work and it is very frustrating!!!! I really want to do something, not just sit and complain. Guess I don't know where to start. Write to my Congressman and Representative would probably be a place to start. I need to do that, make note to self.

On an entirely different note. Went to the gym this morning. I usually like to run outdoors, but the weather here is not cooperating, so I joined a gym for the first time and have been using the treadmill or "dreadmill" as a lot of people call it! I am really not minding it too much, did 45 minutes this morning. I am training for a half marathon in May. Did a marathon, my first, in October. Don't know if I will do another. It takes a lot of time and training and not sure if I am willing to do that again, but a half is okay and keeps me motivated. I am a very slow runner and I am trying to work on that. Been running for 30 years and I am just so slow anymore, I don't want to be the one always bringing up the rear anymore, darn it!!!

Child of the 60's

Yes, I was a teenager during the 60's. I never was into the whole protest thing, but now I wish that I had been. As I grow older I find myself more and more dissatisfied, not with my life, but the way things are going in general. Is it just my age? I fear for the life my grandchildren are going to have. I don't want to be angry at this time of my life, but I am. It just seems our values of our politicians are backwards. I understand the need for Health Care for those who cannot afford it, but why aren't we doing something about the outrageous cost of Health insurance for all of us? I am afraid we, the middle class, will be paying for those who cannot afford, while our cost will continue to sky rocket! Don't even get me started on the cost of a college education. My youngest son will be paying back school loans for years to come , especially since he wants to pursue law enforcement! Granted, he would not have needed to obtain a bachelor degree for this profession, but that is what he wants to do with his life. Sure fill out the FAFSA form and receive all the money you need for college! Right! This is our third child through college and we received little or no assistance and we are not wealthy in any way, shape or form! Somthing has to be done and I don't know where to start. I feel helpless, so I thought if I write how I feel in a blog, it will somehow lessen my feeling of helplessness. Our libraries and our schools can bearly get by anymore, funds are being taken away from these institutions at an alarming pace. I don't know the answers, Ijust have a lot of questions.

Gin